Not Far Now Papa Smurf!

Well it is a month away that I will be married in the Temple for all time and eternity to the love of my life. On Sunday I had my interview with President Johnson for my temple recommend to get married in the Temple and I love talking to him. He is a very profound man and he is wise beyond his years. Some people say that he intimidates them, but I for one don't think that. He gave me some great wisdom to think about and adhere to before and after I am married. As each day goes by I think and reflect on what he told me and I can't help but smile as I ponder the scriptures and his words seem to reflect themselves in what I am reading.

I went and had my yearly eye exam so that I could have contacts for my wedding. I had contacts many years ago but with trying to deal with two babies it was too difficult to do on a daily basis when I could just slip on my glasses. Ron told me that I looked good in contacts and coming from him makes me feel special since he does not give compliments very easily. I text my son Steven and he said nice, I told him that "your momma looks HOT" he was laughing and knowing him he had a big smile on his face and the people around him were wondering what he was laughing and smiling about.

So back to the wedding, I can't wait I am getting more and more excited as well as nervous each day that it gets closer. One of the best things (besides marrying Ron) is that my favorite cousin, my fathers oldest living sister, my favorite brother, my niece and her mom and my college roommate are all coming for the wedding. Not to mention all my sisters in Christ are doing an amazing awesome job with helping me to prepare for the event. I am so glad that I have them in my life, they are WONDERFUL WOMEN OF CHRIST!

2nd fitting-DONE

Well on Wednesday we had my second fitting and they still had to take it in a little more. My dress makes me feel like a princess, I still can not believe that I am getting married in six (6) weeks. GULP! A few things that are good about this is that some of my family from New York are planning on coming YEAH! Since joining the Church I have found out that I love my family and I sure did miss a lot of my cousins growing up after my parents got divorced and I am so thankful that I am making up for lost time now.

So the cake has been ordered and it is going to be beautiful (Thanks Kelly)! Now we need to talk hair, make-up, flowers, reception food and the list goes on and on. but I am starting to get nervous even more so than last post.

Oh yeah I also bought my shoes and they are kind of slipper like shoes and I just love them. Off to do some more planning have a great day.

UPDATE!

Well, I got my shoes for the wedding which are ballet type shoes and are so cute! We picked out the wedding cake and how we want it done. Kelly really rocks on these things and I can't thank her enough for offering to make our cake and make it affordable to us. Invitations will be mailed on 2/20/10. The food I am going to leave up to my friends Aldi and Susan to decide since that will be one less thing I have to worry about. Got to get with Regina on the Flowers, Paloma on the hair, Karen on the make-up gotta buy rings, license, temple recommends........and the list still goes on and on and on and on and on...........

GULP!

So it is about eight weeks until I am supposed to marry for all time and eternity with Ron. But I am having difficulties sleeping and thinking (which is really a bad thing for me to do) about all that needs to get done and will I get it done on time, why did Heavenly Father choose us to be together. We have gone through a few rough patches and he has had to deal with all the issues I have with certain members of my family and he still is sticking by me. Will I be a good enough wife for him, to him, am I good enough for him? Will this wedding turn out the way I want it to? I don't have enough time in the day for all that I need to do and yet I am not sleeping either. There are nights that I just sit in my bed and cry and I can't stop myself. I guess that coming from a very dysfunctional family and always feeling like I am not good enough is catching back up to me as well as the feeling that I will never amount to anything. I go to the scriptures and some days/nights they help and other time it doesn't. I am the type of person who will not ask people for help and that I know is a bad thing to do because I need to stop holding things in but I just can't help myself. I miss my best friend who always was there for me and I know that if she were here in Maryland she would just know that I need her without me saying anything.

I truly love Ron with all my heart and soul and can't wait to marry him but it is so hard to stop these doubts that I have. I guess I will have to continue to pray to Heavenly Father and wait for his answer. We all go through trials and tribulations and we come out strong in the end but I hate having to go through them. I can not and will not let the evil one keep these negative thoughts in my head any longer he has no control over me or my prosperity. I feel so much better now that I have let this all out. Thanks for listening.

Oh no it's almost time!

Well as of this coming Saturday it will be only Three (3) months til I marry the love of my life to spend time and all eternity with him. YIKES! It sure has gone by fast. I still have lots to do like get a veil, slip, some other unmentionables, shoes, figure out the food, flowers, the cake, send out invitations gulp! I did get the invitations bought we just have to print them out. Ron has this really great printer at work that uses crayon type ink to print things and it looks great when done. I just hope that I don't forget to invite someone to the wedding, get real nervous during the ceremony and get sick or something, or cry for that matter.

Before the wedding day even gets here I have so much going on in my life that I am certain I will forget something that I need/have to do. I am starting to get really nervous about this and sometimes I ask Ron why don't we just run away and get married then come back???? He says it would upset to many people.

I know that with my Heavenly Fathers help I will survive and be able to get things done as well as a great bunch of Sisters to help. I just love being a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. There are so many wonder people in the church and makes me wonder why I did not search out this church before? Of course you know I grew up Methodist and in a very dysfunctional family so I only heard negative things about other religions. But then I met the love of my life and he introduced me to the church and as they say the rest is history. Now I just need to remember to breathe and everything will work out for the best. Right????

Dress Update

Well after a trip to two different Bridal shops I saw some that I really liked, but they would have to be altered to be made modest and I did not want to have to pay for those alterations. So I decided that on a whim I would check out Ebay and guess what????? JACKPOT! I placed a bid on a very modest gown and won. Boy was I surprised at that. So I got a nice expensive dress for a VERY modest price. I can't wait to see it. It has never been worn and was a floor model in my size. So there may be some minor alterations and a dry cleaning bill but the savings I made on this dress will more then pay for them. YEAH ME!

Shopping for the Dress......UGH!

You know I hate to shop as it is and now I have to try and find a dress I like to wear for the wedding. So this past Saturday we went to Columbia Bridal just to see what we could find. Good gracious are they pricey. I found one maybe two that I liked that were modest. So now tomorrow brings another round of dresses to try on at David's Bridal, nothing like being paraded around like cattle when you are trying on dresses. The things we do for the men in our lives. I would like to see him have to do this stuff as well. Oh wait he will on Saturday when we go find him and the boys Tux's to wear for the wedding I can't wait. I will update you all on what happens tomorrow and on Saturday when the boys have to parade around like peacocks. HA!