2nd fitting-DONE

Well on Wednesday we had my second fitting and they still had to take it in a little more. My dress makes me feel like a princess, I still can not believe that I am getting married in six (6) weeks. GULP! A few things that are good about this is that some of my family from New York are planning on coming YEAH! Since joining the Church I have found out that I love my family and I sure did miss a lot of my cousins growing up after my parents got divorced and I am so thankful that I am making up for lost time now.

So the cake has been ordered and it is going to be beautiful (Thanks Kelly)! Now we need to talk hair, make-up, flowers, reception food and the list goes on and on. but I am starting to get nervous even more so than last post.

Oh yeah I also bought my shoes and they are kind of slipper like shoes and I just love them. Off to do some more planning have a great day.

UPDATE!

Well, I got my shoes for the wedding which are ballet type shoes and are so cute! We picked out the wedding cake and how we want it done. Kelly really rocks on these things and I can't thank her enough for offering to make our cake and make it affordable to us. Invitations will be mailed on 2/20/10. The food I am going to leave up to my friends Aldi and Susan to decide since that will be one less thing I have to worry about. Got to get with Regina on the Flowers, Paloma on the hair, Karen on the make-up gotta buy rings, license, temple recommends........and the list still goes on and on and on and on and on...........

GULP!

So it is about eight weeks until I am supposed to marry for all time and eternity with Ron. But I am having difficulties sleeping and thinking (which is really a bad thing for me to do) about all that needs to get done and will I get it done on time, why did Heavenly Father choose us to be together. We have gone through a few rough patches and he has had to deal with all the issues I have with certain members of my family and he still is sticking by me. Will I be a good enough wife for him, to him, am I good enough for him? Will this wedding turn out the way I want it to? I don't have enough time in the day for all that I need to do and yet I am not sleeping either. There are nights that I just sit in my bed and cry and I can't stop myself. I guess that coming from a very dysfunctional family and always feeling like I am not good enough is catching back up to me as well as the feeling that I will never amount to anything. I go to the scriptures and some days/nights they help and other time it doesn't. I am the type of person who will not ask people for help and that I know is a bad thing to do because I need to stop holding things in but I just can't help myself. I miss my best friend who always was there for me and I know that if she were here in Maryland she would just know that I need her without me saying anything.

I truly love Ron with all my heart and soul and can't wait to marry him but it is so hard to stop these doubts that I have. I guess I will have to continue to pray to Heavenly Father and wait for his answer. We all go through trials and tribulations and we come out strong in the end but I hate having to go through them. I can not and will not let the evil one keep these negative thoughts in my head any longer he has no control over me or my prosperity. I feel so much better now that I have let this all out. Thanks for listening.

Oh no it's almost time!

Well as of this coming Saturday it will be only Three (3) months til I marry the love of my life to spend time and all eternity with him. YIKES! It sure has gone by fast. I still have lots to do like get a veil, slip, some other unmentionables, shoes, figure out the food, flowers, the cake, send out invitations gulp! I did get the invitations bought we just have to print them out. Ron has this really great printer at work that uses crayon type ink to print things and it looks great when done. I just hope that I don't forget to invite someone to the wedding, get real nervous during the ceremony and get sick or something, or cry for that matter.

Before the wedding day even gets here I have so much going on in my life that I am certain I will forget something that I need/have to do. I am starting to get really nervous about this and sometimes I ask Ron why don't we just run away and get married then come back???? He says it would upset to many people.

I know that with my Heavenly Fathers help I will survive and be able to get things done as well as a great bunch of Sisters to help. I just love being a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. There are so many wonder people in the church and makes me wonder why I did not search out this church before? Of course you know I grew up Methodist and in a very dysfunctional family so I only heard negative things about other religions. But then I met the love of my life and he introduced me to the church and as they say the rest is history. Now I just need to remember to breathe and everything will work out for the best. Right????

Dress Update

Well after a trip to two different Bridal shops I saw some that I really liked, but they would have to be altered to be made modest and I did not want to have to pay for those alterations. So I decided that on a whim I would check out Ebay and guess what????? JACKPOT! I placed a bid on a very modest gown and won. Boy was I surprised at that. So I got a nice expensive dress for a VERY modest price. I can't wait to see it. It has never been worn and was a floor model in my size. So there may be some minor alterations and a dry cleaning bill but the savings I made on this dress will more then pay for them. YEAH ME!

Shopping for the Dress......UGH!

You know I hate to shop as it is and now I have to try and find a dress I like to wear for the wedding. So this past Saturday we went to Columbia Bridal just to see what we could find. Good gracious are they pricey. I found one maybe two that I liked that were modest. So now tomorrow brings another round of dresses to try on at David's Bridal, nothing like being paraded around like cattle when you are trying on dresses. The things we do for the men in our lives. I would like to see him have to do this stuff as well. Oh wait he will on Saturday when we go find him and the boys Tux's to wear for the wedding I can't wait. I will update you all on what happens tomorrow and on Saturday when the boys have to parade around like peacocks. HA!

Date Change!

Well, we had to change the date of our wedding to April 9, 2010 due to the Rose Ball on the 24th. President Johnson told me that I should still have it on the 24th and then just bring everyone to the ball--cheap reception the food would be provided as well as a band and everyone would be dressed right. But I can't do that I want it to be all about me! Doesn't every bride? I still feel like this is surreal, like it is a dream and I am going to wake up at any minute and someone will yell fooled you! NOT FUNNY!

I ordered my ring on Saturday and it should be here on Friday or Tuesday at the latest. What an adventure that was. I had a diamond from my mom that we has reset so all we had to do was find a nice setting simple right? Wrong! Went to several different jewelery stores and boy was there a big price difference. One tried to tell us we needed to have a platinum prongs to protect the diamond. One was totally clueless, one wanted us to wait until the big event they were having and it would be only $700.00-$1000.00 (YIKES)! But we found the perfect one at Reed's Jewelers in the Columbia Mall. The guy was funny, friendly informative and didn't try to sell me something I did not want. I guess now I need to find a dress (and money to buy it), invitations, party favors etc. anyone want to help? I guess we will have to take it one day at a time.