YIPEE!

Steven just accepted at SVU (Southern Virginia University) and on top of that he received scholarships as well. The Lord has and is blessing this family in so many ways these days. He is so Wonderful! Steven was so excited that I swear he was smiling in his sleep last night because this morning he got up and got ready for Seminary and school with no grumbling or hassles and actually got to eat breakfast before he left instead of as he is walking out the door.

Now comes the fun part to figure out how much grant money he gets etc. Well with him we will know what to expect when Shawn gets to this point. On another note, we finally received the date for Steven's graduation which is June 2, 2010 at 12:00 Noon. I can't believe that he is old enough to graduate from High School and then going off to College, then the next thing you know he will be leaving on his mission. Which he wants to go to Australia for.......my baby is growing to fast. Sigh. To all you parents out there don't let your babies grow up. Keep them small for as long as you can. I just know my heart is going to be breaking when I have to take him to college, of course you know I am going to cry and have many sleepless nights for a while.

Bridal Shower

WOW is all I can say. I have some truly wonderful, amazing, awesome, fantastic and lovely friends. They gave me a bridal shower last night and I was truly amazed and awed by how many people came for me. I am not used to having so many people shower me with such love. I was up much later than my usual bed time (9-9:30 PM) looking at all the wonderful gifts that people gave to Ron and I for our new home that we will be making together.

Of course we played a game as I was opening the gifts and of course I was slightly embarrassed by some of the questions that were asked. By it was all in the sense of fun so it was nice. They had the most beautiful cake that was done in dark and light purple colors with a beautiful flower arrangement on top that Regina did. They had dark and light purple M&M's as well. I felt truly well loved.

I took my future MIL and she had a great time and said that she would have to come to more functions that I invite her to since she felt like a part of the group. YEAH! Thanks to all my friends for making her feel so welcome. She doesn't always feel comfortable with people but she laughed and felt at home.

Knowing what truly awesome people I have in my life makes me get more excited about my upcoming wedding than the scared feeling that has seem to be taking over. What a blessing it is to have such wonderful people in my life and in my boys life as well.

27 Days and Counting.......

Last Saturday we ordered our wedding bands and I went and picked them up last night and boy do they sure look pretty. I am getting more and more excited as the days get closer. This next week is sure turning out to be a busy one. Monday I have a meeting, Tuesday I am visit teaching, Wednesday, I get my hair colored, final dress fitting, Shawn has a lacrosse game at 4 so I told Ron he had to go to that, At 7 on Wednesday is my bridal shower. Thursday Steven has a scrimmage, we are supposed to spend the day at the temple, Friday Ron has a band gig and I think I want to go with him, Saturday is the start of Stake Conference and I know there is something else going on but for the life of me I can't remember what.

The boys are at Lacrosse practice now and then I think after next week the scrimmages will be over and the regular season starts. Steven is so excited that the team voted him a captain for Lacrosse, YEAH Steven! Shawn is just excited to be able to play that he thinks he may be a starter as well, GO Shawn. Life is getting busier by the minute and I can't wait until I am Mrs. Ronald Hutchison. Ron informed me today that he is cleaning out some of his stuff which is funny because he has a lot of stuff.

We want to see if friends of ours are serious about selling their townhouse and how much they are asking for it. It is a nice sized townhome and would be the perfect size for us. So keep your fingers crossed.

Not Far Now Papa Smurf!

Well it is a month away that I will be married in the Temple for all time and eternity to the love of my life. On Sunday I had my interview with President Johnson for my temple recommend to get married in the Temple and I love talking to him. He is a very profound man and he is wise beyond his years. Some people say that he intimidates them, but I for one don't think that. He gave me some great wisdom to think about and adhere to before and after I am married. As each day goes by I think and reflect on what he told me and I can't help but smile as I ponder the scriptures and his words seem to reflect themselves in what I am reading.

I went and had my yearly eye exam so that I could have contacts for my wedding. I had contacts many years ago but with trying to deal with two babies it was too difficult to do on a daily basis when I could just slip on my glasses. Ron told me that I looked good in contacts and coming from him makes me feel special since he does not give compliments very easily. I text my son Steven and he said nice, I told him that "your momma looks HOT" he was laughing and knowing him he had a big smile on his face and the people around him were wondering what he was laughing and smiling about.

So back to the wedding, I can't wait I am getting more and more excited as well as nervous each day that it gets closer. One of the best things (besides marrying Ron) is that my favorite cousin, my fathers oldest living sister, my favorite brother, my niece and her mom and my college roommate are all coming for the wedding. Not to mention all my sisters in Christ are doing an amazing awesome job with helping me to prepare for the event. I am so glad that I have them in my life, they are WONDERFUL WOMEN OF CHRIST!

2nd fitting-DONE

Well on Wednesday we had my second fitting and they still had to take it in a little more. My dress makes me feel like a princess, I still can not believe that I am getting married in six (6) weeks. GULP! A few things that are good about this is that some of my family from New York are planning on coming YEAH! Since joining the Church I have found out that I love my family and I sure did miss a lot of my cousins growing up after my parents got divorced and I am so thankful that I am making up for lost time now.

So the cake has been ordered and it is going to be beautiful (Thanks Kelly)! Now we need to talk hair, make-up, flowers, reception food and the list goes on and on. but I am starting to get nervous even more so than last post.

Oh yeah I also bought my shoes and they are kind of slipper like shoes and I just love them. Off to do some more planning have a great day.

UPDATE!

Well, I got my shoes for the wedding which are ballet type shoes and are so cute! We picked out the wedding cake and how we want it done. Kelly really rocks on these things and I can't thank her enough for offering to make our cake and make it affordable to us. Invitations will be mailed on 2/20/10. The food I am going to leave up to my friends Aldi and Susan to decide since that will be one less thing I have to worry about. Got to get with Regina on the Flowers, Paloma on the hair, Karen on the make-up gotta buy rings, license, temple recommends........and the list still goes on and on and on and on and on...........

GULP!

So it is about eight weeks until I am supposed to marry for all time and eternity with Ron. But I am having difficulties sleeping and thinking (which is really a bad thing for me to do) about all that needs to get done and will I get it done on time, why did Heavenly Father choose us to be together. We have gone through a few rough patches and he has had to deal with all the issues I have with certain members of my family and he still is sticking by me. Will I be a good enough wife for him, to him, am I good enough for him? Will this wedding turn out the way I want it to? I don't have enough time in the day for all that I need to do and yet I am not sleeping either. There are nights that I just sit in my bed and cry and I can't stop myself. I guess that coming from a very dysfunctional family and always feeling like I am not good enough is catching back up to me as well as the feeling that I will never amount to anything. I go to the scriptures and some days/nights they help and other time it doesn't. I am the type of person who will not ask people for help and that I know is a bad thing to do because I need to stop holding things in but I just can't help myself. I miss my best friend who always was there for me and I know that if she were here in Maryland she would just know that I need her without me saying anything.

I truly love Ron with all my heart and soul and can't wait to marry him but it is so hard to stop these doubts that I have. I guess I will have to continue to pray to Heavenly Father and wait for his answer. We all go through trials and tribulations and we come out strong in the end but I hate having to go through them. I can not and will not let the evil one keep these negative thoughts in my head any longer he has no control over me or my prosperity. I feel so much better now that I have let this all out. Thanks for listening.